Happiness

     I was UBER happy today.  I got to see both Ky and Rae- their puppies Eli and Buster.  I haven't seen either of them since last July when I was in NY.  It's a bit of bad timing, yes it's my 5day weekend but I have so much lined up that I *have* to do that the three days they'll be here I'm just so busy.  Like tomorrow for instance I have to go get hay for Bailey.  Today was a Heidi day.  I'll have to get a few more things set up and done tomorrow.  Hopefully dad doesn't mind me taking his truck or mom gets home at a decent time for me to take the car.  My poor truck has to wait one more week.  Too many bills to risk buying the alternator and then coming up short on money.  We went up to see Heidi.  I rode her for the first time in 3 weeks.  The arena was a little frozen and still had snow in it but she was a SAINT.  After I rode for a little bit, we got Rachel up there, then Ky.  Ky got down just as she got a phone call and had to disappear a little bit and we got Sandy up there.  Just small steps to get her comfortable on a horse again.  

     Tomorrow/Saturday is a Bailey and bunnies day.  I have to go get hay first thing in the morning, get that stacked up so Bailey has plenty to get through the winter, plus bottle calves and the bunnies, then get bunny trays cleaned, and hopefully get the run-in striped cleaned.  I have to get some more and new pictures of Bailey for her weekly photo updates.  Sunday is Super Bowl.  I get to spend the time with Aunt Lisa, Ky and Rae and possibly doing my taxes too so I can get that one done.  Well time for me to sleep.  I need some serious sleep to catch up on!  

Smile and Laugh

     Bailey makes me smile something crazy right now,  seeing as I was up early enough today(left my bedroom door open because closed makes my room COLD) that I had some time when I went out to feed.  Got her fed, the bunnies done and sat on half the hay bale that was outside as she was eating off the rest of the bale.  I miss doing that with Heidi.  Eventually Heidi will be home and I'll be able to sit out with the two of them.  I think I have decided that I'll bring her home eventually and I'm going to keep Bailey for the mean time.  
     My morning amusement as I posted for the ladies at AFGAFH:  my work schedule is 3:00pm-3:30am Tuesday night after work(technically Wednesday morning) it's -4 outside and we came out to a flat tire outside. so by the time dad and I got it changed and got home I was FROZEN. it was super late, didn't bother to try a hot shower to warm up, slept maybe 3.5 hours because I was so damn cold couldn't warm up. So Last night my toes still getting obscenely cold at work, I had mom leave the heating pad on my bed so I could warm my feet up and go to sleep easier. Got home, warmed them up, and literally just as I clicked the heating pad off the power went out. I freaked out thinking I blew a fuse or something with the heating pad. I crawled out from under my blankets (2 fleece and a comforter) left the still warm pad under there so I'd have a warm bed to climb back into and used my cell phone for light to find my flashlight and looked outside. No one's outdoor security lights were on. *phew* wasn't me, just a HUGE coincidence. Then couldn't get to sleep because the power blinked on and off about 8 times, plus the fan in my room wasn't running and I apparently can't sleep without it now. Each time I learned my alarm clock has this ring to it as it powers back up and the answering machine 'ALMOST' went outside. Finally the power came back on and stayed on and I went right to sleep for 5.5 hours. :p I was laughing so hard trying to tell my folks the story of the heating pad knocking out the power.
      I thought it was funny, I mean really how can a heating pad kick the power?!  I just laughed so hard about it   Well one more night of pure torture then a decent 5 day weekend ahead!  

Progress is SLOW

     Progress has been slow, it's almost February and I have yet to lose any weight(in fact as of this morning still half pound over Jan 1st), still haven't gotten another job-though I did get notification that I got turned down for a position at Catalent and have yet to get everything settled and organized. Right now I just feel like sitting down and crying- I'm over tired and just not in the mood to deal with real life.  It's too darn cold- helping dad change a flat tire at 3:30 in the morning so we could go home from work when it's -4 outside did nothing to help.  Then I couldn't sleep for hours because I was too damn cold.  So over all slept like shit, feel like I've done been run over by my own pickup truck and feel like I'm going BACKWARDS.  But I'm still trying for a new job, still working on controlling my weight.  I can't wait to get this week of work over and done with, it'll be back to average temperature for most of my 5 day weekend.  I can go play with Heidi- I'll get Bailey out and I can get my rabbit cages clean again, not to mention take a couple more out of the barn so I can take the cage above it's trays out.  Right now I'm working on cutting down the number of rabbits that I have and I did make another choice- I'm cutting down to 3 or 4 Torts, I'm going to mainly blue, steel and chinchilla.  
     Thinking, Bailey's blanket came in the other day and she LOVES it, it's warmer and she can lay out, even in this below 20 degree air, in the sun.  She can move better since it actually FITS her.  She's such a doll, I think she'll just have to stay here with me and eventually Heidi.  She follows me around the field it's fun to watch her ears go every direction when I stop moving and hold my breath as she's trying to find me.  Her head is at my right shoulder as we walk around the pasture in the mornings.  Just love her.  

Long road ahead

     It's been a long road to get to where I am and still a long way to go to get where I want to go.  So many things.  My weight is still a sore spot for me to continue to deal with.  I am not happy with it, but hopefully I will get a job at Masco, and then I can eventually work to the point of joining a gym.  Spend a couple mornings a week at a gym on an elliptical or something simliar to log some more miles.  Eventually I'd like to get to swimming more as the stress I'll be adding to my foot will be incredibly painful.  It'll still be a few more years before I finally break down and get some more work done on my foot.  
     My weight has stayed high holding closer to 270.  I made a promise to myself to a 30 x 30.  Lose 30 pounds by the time I'm 30 years old.  I need to be at 240 or less by the end of August.  I have to get my mind set and wrapped around it.  I know next weekend's Super Bowl "party" won't help at all in the slightest but I'll deal with that as the time comes. I do see this as a wake up call I need to stay and get lighter for my own health, it'll greatly help my foot as well.  
     After spending most of the afternoon up with Miss Heidi and Sandy, I was so relaxed.  It's also so warm right now, my room is toasty still!!  Ayden's been acting strange lately and I'm curious as to what has happened.  Tonight, like last night and the night before, he's slept in his crate.  He usually just sleeps on the bed with Jess.  What the heck?!  It doesn't bother me that he's been sleeping in there it's just strange.  
     Anyway a few Heidi pictures as I get ready for bed now.  4 days of pure Nestle torture and then 5 beautiful days off!

Middle of the Deep freeze

     I am hoping tomorrow is as warm as they say it will be.  I'm really eager and ready to go over and see Heidi.  I don't care if it's just letting her loose in the arena and sitting there with her for a little while.  Seeing Bailey every day has helped but she hasn't developed a loving bond with me that Heidi has.  The bonding process takes time and effort- neither of which I have had to spend yet with Bailey.  It would be much easier to work with both if Heidi was home or Bailey was at Tamarack.  Tomorrow is a fresh start to the day and we'll see where it takes us.   

     I miss the fun person that could take the cold that I used to be!  After these last couple of days of hiding, I just looked back and said, 'what happened? I used to enjoy this kind of weather'.  I think Kentucky has made me a bit of a pansy when it comes to the cold!  Makes me giggle quite a bit the more I think of it.  I can't wait to see Sandy again and this way I can bring some print outs for her to see of Bailey and the one of her and Spencer that I have on my wall.  
     I am hoping with adding Neil and Iria as steels to my barn and if I add Natalie's daughter as well since I don't have Penelope anymore.  I miss Penelope but I know Rachel does love her as well.  Hopefully this little doe can hold up to the standards that Miss Penelope did.  Pen-pen was the last of Rafik that I had.  

     Tomorrow will be a good day, I can't wait for tomorrow to spring many plans and hopes to a wonderful day before going back for 4 straight days of torture to a hopefully good 5 days off.       

Pestered

     I was by myself for the most part of today.  I sat and worked on at least one project that I've been meaning to do for a long time: Phoenix's collage.  Made me miss him deeply.  I didn't realize how much I would miss him being here.  I know it had been his time as he was old.  I'm still worrying that it was the wrong thing, or wrong time.  It wasn't, had he not gone, I wouldn't have the room/space for Bailey.  Everything happens for a reason.  

     Thinking to those lines, my Holland boy Gabriel passed away last night.  I knew he was going to go soon as the last temperature fluctuation he seemed to start losing motor functions in his hindquarters.  He was *almost* 8 years old.  April 30th 2006-January 23rd 2014.  I've had him since he was 7 weeks old.  I will eventually miss having my lops around but I will not ever get back into them.  They sure are adorable.  I do love a good lop ear.  I may get another one eventually, but as a pet ONLY.  Just because Gab came out as good as he did, and Speedle too, doesn't mean I'll get lucky more than once. 

     So as it was HORRIBLY cold today and I just wished it was warmer so I could play with one pony or the other today it never happened.  It should be decent on Sunday so I might make my way over to Heidi and try to get a ride in.  I don't know how she'll be after two weeks off.  

     I did put in another application to Masco Cabinets- same place that dad's just waiting on his drug test so he can get his start date.  So he's out of Nestle,  my turn!  I'm more than willing to take a pay cut to get out of there.  Even if it means bringing Heidi home.  Tomorrow I'm going to have mom call that dentist office behind DQ and set me up to have this tooth pulled on Friday.  I've got to get it out.  Or at least something.  I need this tooth pulled before it causes me any more discomfort.  It's only Thursday now, I have to go back to Nestle tomorrow and Saturday before I can go see Heidi, then a LONG 4 straight days to a 5 day weekend to recover again and keep working at a new job!  I have so much to do over my 5 day weekend I'll be bone dead tired but it'll all be good in the long run.  I've got to get hay Friday or Saturday, get that tooth pulled hopefully Friday, and most definitely get over and work with Miss Heidi again!  Even if it's just free-lunging under tack again.  I'm hoping to get up for a ride at some point, I need to find Lucky's mom again to start talking to her about putting some training rides on Heidi as the spring comes.  She'll need those training rides before I bring her home.  

Heidi snow day

     Had to go see my big baby girl today.  I really need to bring her home.  I don't see her enough at all.  I know she's well taken care of up there but I still miss her terribly.  Her board is paid up through the end of February so I have through then at the earliest to decide.  I may not be able to afford to keep her on boarding when I get a new job.  
     Marley of coarse HATED to be separated from Heidi. Misty has gone down to the bottom barn to be with Fortune since the other girls chase Fortune off from their herd so Fortune and Misty can be buddies together.  That's two of Marley's 'girlfriends'.  So he won't leave Heidi now.  I do feel kind of bad for him if I do take Heidi away.  I've really liked being there, it's my calm away from everything else.  I'll see what happens.  I do need to just wait things out and see what happens.  Need to get and start my new job and see how that goes.  
     I went ahead and ordered a blanket for Bailey.  It looks identical to Heidi's except it's pink.  I've decided to go with a pink/blue color scheme for Bailey.  I think, for the time being Bailey's going to stay here with me.  I'd rather, I'd be more comfortable keeping her here for the duration of the spring and bring Heidi home to that, so she'd have a friend.  I just worry about the two not liking each other.  I think they'll be fine though.  Well off to bed.  I'm hoping I can slip into the dentist office tomorrow and get this tooth yanked.

Slow day physically

     Today the day was slow, and I mean SLOW.  I had to get up at 6:30am to leave for a doctor's appointment at St. Claires hospital.  It was Fine Needle Aspiration to pull some samples from the nodule on my thyroid.  It didn't really hurt, I was just too tired to really care!  Mom came down with me, I was quite surprised, she's not good at getting up and going early in the morning either.  Gave me someone to talk to so I wasn't yelling at the radio the whole way.  The drive down was not bad, the roads were fairly clear, the drive back was a bit more rough.  It's been a while since I've had to drive in the snow.  Tomorrow I plan to drive up and see Heidi though.  It's been over a week since I've seen her.  Seeing Bailey daily has been helping a LOT.  
     The snow was on top of EVERYTHING today.  4 to 5 inches total came down.  I had no other option but to put the 72" sheet over Bailey.  Took me a few minutes to finally get it on her, she was completely scared of it but she gave in eventually, her food was more pressing.  I've been faced with a hard choice and I'm still mulling over the pro's and con's of it. To keep Bailey or not to.  
     Pros:

• Know she's in a good safe place, no need to scour through references
• already know how to take care of a blind horse
• field companion for when I bring Heidi home
• possible driving mount in the future
• She's smart and already learning my voice

     Cons:

• She's more of a useless money pit instead of the useful(riding) money pit that Heidi is
• She's young she could live for a long time
• She could still make a wonderful kids lead line pony
• have to bring in more Hay and buy grain again. 
• My pasture is not big enough to support two horses dependably 

     At this point, I'm still leaning towards just keeping her.  Less hassle to deal with.  My mental state has been better with being able to see a horse each day.  It's not Heidi but Bailey's working so far.  I think I may passively look for a new home for her, Drifter will be up to my Aunt right now as to what she wants to do.  

     Looks like Dad found a new job, Masco Cabinets.  I plan to be applying there tomorrow on my way over to see Heidi.  On Friday of my 5 day weekend I plan to get my tooth pulled.  It needs to come out I know there's no way of fixing it.  If I get hired in at Masco as well I'll lose my insurance for a short period of time and I don't want to wait to fix it. $70 to pull a tooth and I'll have to do it.  Then I'll worry about setting up an appointment for a cleaning and evaluation of the rest of them.  

     And lastly a couple photos out in the snow today.  Way to cold to stay out for too long!

Bailey's Mash:

Life is a Ride

     Sunday really was a ride.  I wish I had, had more time while I was out and about for the day.  I had to sleep some today though.  I ran out, fed Bailey and brushed her some, then took off to go meet Catherine in Lexington and return the shirts I bought for Jess for Christmas as they were the wrong size.  Brought home a pair of steels. I drove by and blew Heidi a kiss from the road, I didn't have time to stop for real but Wednesday I'll be heading over there, dressed up all snuggly warm just to see her and get January board paid.  I've only got little over two weeks to then turn around and get February's paid but I'll figure it out.  I'll have to.  Later today is the plant wide meeting at the High School.  I don't really want to go but it's mandatory.    Anyway, stopped by Aunt Lisa's, helped dad butcher up two bunnies.  Then RUN home fast as possible, and with Jessica's help got the bunnies fed, watered and gave them their hay and gave Bailey her supper.  Got a couple quick pictures of the two new babies.  

     I know the little buck's picture isn't the best.  The doe's just got the nicest body and I needed a steel buck BADLY.  I'd have liked to have more ticking on him but body type is there and so aren't the bloodlines.  Besides, he may shed into a nicer coat later on.  Well it is time to go to bed, stupid arse meeting to get up early for.  I have to at least get Bailey fed before the meeting.  I can't wait to play with the horses soon!  

Believe

     I do believe I did the right thing.  I knew Bailey followed Drifter around but Drifter pushed Bailey off the feed.  I know she'll be perfectly fine over there with Aunt Lisa as one of the few people left that I truly trust.   Now I can more concentrate on Bailey's recovery and not have to worry about Drifter eating everything.  Bit more focus.  I've focused down on some of the rabbits, I know where they're going.  It's time to cut and trim that herd just a little more, from here it's the hard part, there's many, not already on the sale row, that I just do not want to part with but I just need to bit the bullet and do so.  
     After Drifter left, Bailey paced a little bit(yes she's gaited!) I gave her another small scoop of feed and she settled down.  She hollered at a couple passing by horses.  Mom watched her for me while I was at work and she said she ate for a long while, then slept for a few hours and then was eating again when I got home.  
     Thank heavens we got out early, I was so tired, irritable and just down right mean.  The simple over tired and over worked way a lot of people get.  I like my sleep and only getting 5 to 6 hours of sleep a night because I'm working too long isn't going to work.  I've got new applications back in to Neogen, Alltech, Catalent and I've got a few more going into a few other places.  I'd absolutely LOVE to get into Alltech, they have so much to learn and just the direction I'd like to take my career in.  But so far they've failed to call me so I'm going to keep trying.  Eventually I'd like to move out, be able to afford a place of my own(rent a small house, maybe have a roomie) and afford to keep both horses, assuming I end up keeping Bailey, if not just Heidi, and not have too many worries or problems.  I'm still toying the idea of Brent Francis' place.  I'll toy with that mentally a little longer but I want to wait and see where I get a new job before I inquire for more information.  A few of these jobs that I'm applying to are in Morehead, I go that direction then I'll transfer my search for a boarding barn down there.  I still do love Tamarack.  Perry and Sandy are awesome and for the most part the other boarders are, can't say the same of a few of theirs dogs.  
     It's time to get up and get moving, still sore, still tired but Bailey needs to be fed, I have to get to Lexington to meet up with Catherine and then home to get my bunnies fed(Out of bunny food).  Somewhere in the middle, I'm stopping by Aunt Lisa's to get a couple bunnies butchered and see how Drifter settled in(though by my Uncle's blog, she settled in VERY nicely).  I'm picking up a pair of steels to add to my barn(gee right after I said something about cutting them down, the steel buck was NEEDED and the doe was too nice to pass up!).  I'll have another blog post tonight-hopefully.  General meeting tomorrow, Doc appointment on Tuesday and *maybe* if I feel like it I'll go to work after the doc appointment.  

At the ends of the rope

     I am at ends of my rope right now.  I watched Drifter and Bailey this morning and now I know why Bailey's not picking up the weight like Drifter is- Drifter's eating all the food, she pushes Bailey off.  Bailey lets her which is even odder. I know Bailey is hungry, she comes to my voice to eat.  If Aunt Lisa is still willing, I'll bring Drifter over to her place, and this way too, I can get Micheal on her feet, she's got the worst feet of the two.  I'm at ropes end right now.  Bailey needs the feed way more than Drifter-both need it.  Drifter pushes Bailey off the feed, but Bailey still follows her around.  It's easier to feed them when I don't have to work, but going back to the 12 hour shifts it'll be back to throw them feed and hay and run.  I physically can't have both of them here for this as I can't watch and monitor them to keep Drifter off Bailey's.  
  

     I feel like a failure right now.  I wanted to be able to afford to keep both of them through their rehab- but I see now that I just don't have the facilities, they need to be locked up separately to eat.  I don't have the money to buy the panels to lock them up while they eat.  I still have failed to continue to get this year under control.  So against my own better judgement I'll be resorting to finding a loan-either a bank or 401K loan.  I have to get back on top of all this, get it under control.  It saddens me that I have gotten so far out of hand and I have Nestle to thank for that.  I swear by February I will have gone crazy.  
     I might have already gone crazy, what am I thinking?  For 3 days I had no speakers on my laptop.  Now all of a sudden they are back today.  I don't think me and Dell's mix too well.  It's already froze up on me twice and now the disappearing-reappearing speakers thing.  Hm.  Maybe I should have stuck to Toshiba's!  I had super good luck with mine.  Sadly the old one is dead, mother board fried out.  Which is sad.  I do miss that laptop, it didn't do crazy things, just when it started to go that was it, it went hard and fast.  
     Time to get up and start getting ready for Hell.  I think on my first break I'll call and see about a loan against my 401K.  It maybe a pain in the ass if I get a new job to get that paid back but I'd rather do that as repayment comes right out of my paycheck and if I'm stuck at Nestle I'd rather do that than worry about yet another bill to pay.  

Keep trudging

     I do understand to never give up on your dreams.  I do remember stating once to myself in my past that after losing Sedonia that I would eventually have a little black pony mare again.  So maybe Bailey has come into my life to replace Sedonia.    

"Neither will replace Sunny, but I will have to make do with it.  Someday, I will find a pony like Sunny and it will be black . . . I just love ponies too much.  As of July 3^rd, it will be a year since I last rode a horse, but it’s not the end.  I will ride again someday, when I find the right calm horse." 

     An excerpt from a story I wrote years ago- long before moving to Kentucky.  I have found the 'right calm horse' in Heidi and I just may have found my 'black pony' in Bailey.  I don't think I'll end up placing Bailey, that blindness will bind her to me because the reality of blind horses getting good loving homes is slim to none.  I will look, don't worry about that but first to do something with Drifter.  As much as I do enjoy that mare as well, she does push Bailey off the hay and out of her feed pan.  Bailey will do better on her own than with Drifter there.   

     I have started and quit many things and this time, I do solemnly swear that I won't quit  trying to make things work out.  I've quit enough stuff already this year, and I know why I started but I also understand why I am quitting, it wasn't worth the pain.  I still found myself angry today with Rachel and it still hasn't left my mind despite what I've been doing to try and make it leave.  Maybe going back to Nestle Hell tomorrow will help me get rid of it.  Maybe not.  I am not sure.  I'm going to continue to apply to places- multiple places and multiple times if need be.  

Trust

     At this point yes.  I don't know what to think or do.  Not mentioning anything specific but my two best friends didn't even trust me and that kills me more than anything else.  How can you tell someone something and then tell me that they couldn't tell you before because they thought you'd pass judgement on them.  I mean I trusted these girls, how do they expect me to trust them now, if they couldn't so much as trust me to tell me something.  I thought they knew me better than this.  This hurts me more to think of it than even the thoughts of the biopsy on the 21st.  Have to back track a little bit, I went back in for the retest of the thyroid to make sure that medication is working, the doctor felt an enlarged thyroid so she had me get that ultrasounded- that was last Thursday- and they found a nodular cell in it.  Now the doctor wants to biopsy it just in case- check it thoroughly- so that Biopsy is next week.  Did I ever mention I HATE needles.  I can tolerate needles but I have to watch them, and I don't think I can this time. Rather to be safe than sorry I know but I will have to see about doing either a bank loan or a loan off my 401K to get everything paid off.
     This best friends not trusting me thing is really ripping through my head.  I don't know if I ever want to try to trust them again.  Why must I be left in the dark, I'm just curled up in my room, fighting the urge to throw a fist or sit here and cry.  It's a mental disaster.  What they did, doesn't bother me, they're happy with their choices then that's what I want.  I want my friends to be able to trust me and how can I trust someone that doesn't trust me.  That's the real question.
     I have to stop thinking about it.  I really do.  If there's one creature I trust with my whole heart and life is Heidi.  I was out riding her the other, Sunday, and we did some trotting, I've been working on my leg strength to trot again,  I wish I could see her every day.  I took Aunt Lisa and Dad up to the barn today, I wanted Aunt Lisa to sit in the saddle and see how comfortable it was for her to see if keeping the other Wintec is worth it.  On a hay bale it feels different.  It does help get a feel for hip to knee.  I tacked Heidi up in the crossties, and Dad got up there, no problems.  Saddle's a little short hip to knee but it even felt that way to me on a hay bale.   Sandy even tried and found the back of the saddle was too high(or mounting block too short and Heidi too tall!) but it also gave her the chance to realize that she needed a lower back to her saddle.  So maybe on a warmer day we'll try it again and use the big black box out in the arena and let her sit on Heidi and get a good feel for the saddle.
     I have to do something with these ponies soon.  With the possible upcoming bills, I just don't want to deal with them.  Yes, they need someone to take care of them, I just don't have the mental room right now nor the money to be able to continue their rehab.  At least that's what my head is telling me.  I'm hoping to find a few round bales for them to preserve some of my square bales for the rabbits and eventually the bottle calves.  Montgomery's sold out of their round bales so I'll be asking around for any more local to me that can be delivered with a tractor.  
     Anyway, a few pictures of my girl from Sunday.  Her and a few rabbits are my loves and who needs other humans when they have always loving and trusting animals.  

     I do have to stop thinking about Rachel, I'm just upset about it.  Rachel said, I'll call you back and as I hung up, I only retorted I hope you don't.  I just was upset.  I felt betrayed by the two closest people in my life, that I feel like I can always be myself with.  Time to go find something to let me let off some stream, and tomorrow I think I'll just brush these ponies out and stay home with my bunnies.  

Crazy Wild day

     I did go out to the barn today, and it was just beyond too windy, was blowing the truck across the wet pavement.  I got up there, the arena wasn't that wet but I didn't trust myself to get on.  If Heidi spooked at the wind, I'd have hit the arena ground, I'm afraid I'm not good enough for her!  We had a wild day.  I hosed her legs and hooves off and let her loose with Spencer to go graze and then Sandy taps my shoulder(we could barley hear each other the wind was that bad) and asked me if that was a rider less horse running across the field.  Sure enough it was.  I can't remember the owner/rider's name but her dog, Meira and her horse Finnigan names I can remember.  Anyway, Heidi's lead rope still over my shoulder, I hadn't even put it on the fence with Spencer's rope yet.  The two of us took off fast.  Sandy being a retired nurse, just told me to catch the horse.  Heck at this point I didn't even know the horse's name!  Lead rope over my shoulder down the driveway I went!  I got to the bottom barn by the main gate, saw his reins broken and cringed, I kept saying, 'I hope you walk out well, I hope you didn't hurt yourself'.  Thankfully he let me walk up to him, clip the lead rope to the side where the rein was short, picked up the other end and walked him, with the lead and the rein as if they were the full set of unbroken reins.  He did spook once when Juan was walking with us back down to the bottom to put him back into his stall.  Juan held him, I untacked him real quick and we got him into his stall.  At least he wasn't sweaty and not blowing or breathing hard anymore.  I think the walk up and down the driveway calmed him down.  Juan waited at the bottom to let the ambulance in and Victor brought me back up to the top(thankfully I was starting to get tired!).  Then I walked out to where she had landed with Sandy, still carrying Heidi's lead rope, which I then clipped to Meira to keep her from 'helping' the paramedics.  The wind was starting to bit into me so I asked Perry where to put Meira, and 'eh said stick her in a stall for right now', he'd bring her home with her car later on.  What a wild day.  
     I do have to admit, Heidi's spoiled, everyone loves her.  She was good for being tossed and locked into a field in the wild wind and Spencer-she didn't hurt him, she ran with him though.  Then after locking Meira into the stall, I finished mixing up the alfalfa mash for Heidi, put it in the stall between Lucky and Spencer and put her into the crossties, and brushed her good and clean, including picking her feet to make sure they're alright still.  I know she's not due for a trim for a few weeks but I wanted to check for thrush.  Then let her into the stall to munch and I helped the guys bring the other horses in, I grabbed Lucky while Juan grabbed Joe, then I grabbed Cocoa and he grabbed the donkeys.  Victor was putting feed in and gave Heidi a small scoop too, she's so spoiled!  I let her back out since Marley wouldn't leave the fence without Heidi.  Marley and Misty are the only two that outsize Heidi as they're both 18 hands, but Heidi outsizes them in head size!  

     Tomorrow I'll be going back up so that I can hopefully get a ride in on my pretty baby, then I'll wait until Tuesday to see her one last time before going back to work again.  No guarantee's I'll get back before another week is up.  Knowing me I probably won't.  I want to check on Finnigan as well when I get there.  

     This morning, I wanted to add that I ran out to check Drifter and Bailey, ran my hands over their bodies and tape measured them for height.  I was actually pretty much spot on for their heights.  Bailey measured in at 13.2 hands and Drifter at 14 hands.  Bailey had a half hearted cow kick when I ran my hands down her hindquarters.  So she's either a bit sore still or she doesn't like being touched.  Drifter on the other hand didn't worry.  I didn't try to pick up her feet, but I should have.  Drifter loved me rubbing her neck and head.  She put her head into my chest and just nuzzled into me.  Makes me really wish I didn't have to get rid of her later on.  I just hugged and held onto her head and she let me.  Such a snuggler.  She will make some child a WONDERFUL pony.  Tomorrow after a wonderful day with Miss Heidi again I'll spend some time with Drifter and Bailey- maybe at least get their feet picked out.  I should have at least one hoof pick here somewhere.