Tuesday, August 28, 2018

Thankful



Well our few months at Aunt Lisa's for the big girls was over.  Her field needs some time to recover for the sheep for the winter, so on the 25th, Nelson came over and hauled the girls home.  Tessa balked at the trailer at first because it was a higher step up than she was used to, but a little bit of encouragement and she hopped up.  I was a little worried she wouldn't load, I remembered the first time we tried to load her as a 2 year old, onto Nelson's trailer to move her home and we tried for almost an hour to get her on and couldn't get her on.  The 5.5 years she spent with Joey he did a lot of training work with her and he hauled her all over the place.  So her balking kinda scared me but she loaded.  But Heidi loaded as I expected her to.  I know she was a pain in the ass to load onto Lisa's trailer to bring her over to Lisa's, but I figured with Tessa already on the trailer Heidi * should * load right up- and she did.  Didn't miss a step at all.  Walked right up next to me.  Super thankful she is such a fantastic mare.  Tessa's no slouch on the fantastic mare aspect either, but I still say that I will not get another mare after these two, unless I find a guy that is into raising QH's and Paints. I also talked to Nelson a little about maybe bringing Heidi over to meet a stud in the next year or two.  I am just scared to get a filly foal.  Though Nelson said he preferred his fillies over colts.  
Anyway, the girls came home and have been so comfortable together.  I finally went and got some fly spray because the big horse flies were bothering the crap out of the two.  






Wormed them on Sunday and Monday and Tuesday I lunged Tessa about 5-10 minutes each day.  Hoping sometime before the weekend to get on her and ride.  Might be bareback.  I did get my saddle scrubbed clean.  It's been sitting so long it was all covered in mold.  I am hoping this drive I have had the last couple of days continues so that I will get on both girls before I go back to work. 

Sad part is the rabbits seem to have gotten pushed to the wayside.  I keep telling myself I simply cannot keep up with all the different animals.  Sadly the dog show in September is out because I have to work at Drachefeld.  I am tempted to bring my sister and 'teach' her to do it so I can do the show still but I don't want to make Becky mad at me either.  So I guess until Mikey is back and I can have choice weekends free to continue showing I guess dog shows are out of the question. 

So eventually I guess I will have to find a new loophole to go through with future plans.  I REALLY would like to find a guy that's totally decent and worth my time to deal with.  I would really like to get married someday.  The girls at work made jokes saying I needed to get married so I could get divorced and join them in their divorced crowd.  Honestly I don't want to get married just to get divorced again and be apart of their 'crowd'.  But I would love to get married someday to a man that's worth it.  I am still searching for a decent place to move into with some of my paycheck now being freed up,  all that is left right now is credit card debt.  I am putting cash aside for a newer car for myself.   

Friday, August 10, 2018

Passions



It's been another month of craziness.  Been working, house sitting and working some more!  Again I haven't' spent any time what so ever with Heidi and Tessa, but I have settled on a date to bring them home- the 25th.  I just have to go talk to Nelson and see if he'd trailer the girls back out to dad's.  I never did get the large chunk of the fence replaced but I am going to see if I can't borrow the electric tape to just put up but not connect to the electric to help keep my girls off the fence and possibly continue to replace fencing.  I do miss my girls. I have learned so much that horses are just my release and I miss having them around.  I know I could always go over and mess with them I just never have the energy especially by the time I drive over there and now I am in the drive to get hay put up in the barn for them for winter. 



Becky did learn her mare didn't take to breeding twice now so she will be trying to find her a good home and as much as I do like the mare, I don't want another mare and I know I couldn't afford to feed/take care of another horse in general.  Granted breed her over to Tessa's sire and get a dun, likely red dun foal but to me no garuntee that I'd get a colt to geld. Also David Howards got a yearling paint gelding that was GORGEOUS but has lameness issues and not worth much, I wouldn't mind messing with it- but again no room or finances to take care of 3 horses. 
I want to do more with them, just like I want to do more with a lot of things.  I am planning right now on doing so much stuff with them when they are home again.  I still haven't quit looking for my own place but I am looking right now at clearing debt.  One more week and I'll be doing the last payment on my student loans!  Makes me so excited to finally clear that one.  Lastly left is credit card debt! Next thing to save up for is the newer car while I am paying down/off credit card debt.  
The last week I spent at Mrs Fu's was stressful.  I was there Sunday through Sunday.  Mom blew a tire on the Nissan in Lexington and had to go get that, and leave them my car and I was driving my truck with no brake lights, then they bust my car (okay, okay, it was just a half dead alternator).  That drove me batty and I lost so much money behind driving my truck.  I didn't sink but it was enough to irritate me to no end.  I've been stressed out the last couple of months and I am so mentally worn out.  I have tried a new thyroid supplement.  I'm not sure it's helping or not but I am thinking it's helping some.  I try to not take it daily as it feels like it does set my sinus' off at times.  
Willow and I did get through 1 training class before all the mayhem hit.  I am intending to continue home training shortly and push forward.  Aunt Lisa sent me a premium for a September show and THAT one I am pretty sure I can make and get back into the ring.  Do a Rally Novice B and at least get back into the ring.  I am ready to start doing some training work on top of working my horses. 
I still rollercoaster ride back and forth through depression episodes and I am trying to get a better control.  I had a stronger depression episode this past week and then starting Thursday  it swung from the depression to anger issues.  I was so angry at work that I was personally just a foul person to be around.  I tried to angle my ways outside and away to try and minimize the damage.  
Many plans, many goals and I am happy to say I am starting to move forward.  I'm still house hunting, it's just hard to find somewhere that I can afford on my salary and still have the room to keep my horses.