Thursday, November 30, 2017

Becoming

Life is different right now I'm actually thinking about the future and I'm actually optimistic lately.  I don't know why I don't know how things are really going to play out but I am bent and determined to go forward and enjoy life no matter what my health throws into the mix.  I've been happy, grumpy but happy if that makes sense.  I know I still have so many bridges to cross but I'm looking forward to crossing those bridges!  
I have started to do better with my eating and taking my vitamins and supplements.  It's paying off so far, I think.  Jess, Mom and I are doing a weightloss challenge and so far I am the ONLY one of us that is below starting weight.  While I still want to lose more and do it faster but slow and steady is way better than dropping it hard and fast and getting sick.  I got a minor mirror shock today catching a glimpse of my own reflection and I said I have to learn to love this women looking back at me.  I figured I may not like her right now but that's who I am.  I want to be stronger. I want to be more fit.  I have plenty of wants to become a healthier me, but I have to start with being happy to start with.  
Horses are actually doing great!  I am very happy with them.   Tessa's starting to lose weight and Heidi's doing great weight wise.  Both still chubby but I'm not fit and trim so I don't see why they should be kept fit and trim.  I'm hoping to start Heidi on a joint supplement and put her back on the Spirulina wafers again.  Looks like I'll go through about 3 jars of them a month.  It'll get Pricey but so long as it keeps it both girls happy I will do it!  I might eventually just add spirulina pellets to Tessa's smartpak and then just get the wafers for Heidi.  Not sure yet what to do there. 




The bunnies, well the bunnies are there.  I know old man winter is coming in and going to hit much more hard core next week.  I'm still holding small and steady with what few rabbits I have.  I bred 3 does and I have 2 positive palpation's for litters next week.  1 dutch, 1 english spot.   I'm still unsure if I will continue them harder in the spring or not.  
Happy days coming forward.  I'm going to go forward from today, feeling as fresh as possible and focusing on my health, and my girl's health.  My girls are getting older, faster than I am but doesn't mean I can't get things figured out before that.   
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                                                                          Heidi, Tessa & Willow  💖💖💖