I was really ready to rock and rumble today after work. Ended up staying until 12:20 today, cutting into the time I had set aside to bring Grandma to lunch. So I ended up grabbing a Little Caesar's pizza and crazy bread and heading over. I stayed there until 2:30 then I knew I had to get moving if I had intended to go for a ride on Heidi. Now for some back story, I had gone over on Wednesday because I just HAD to see Heidi. I haven't seen her in ages it felt like. I needed to get my hands on her again, even if it was just with some brushes and take off some mud. I had heard her cough but I chucked it up to her being in the dry cold winter air. So today I got there, she came up to me and I took her inside , she let out a few big coughs again. This time I was a little wary of the coughs. I tacked up anyway, feeding her plenty of her peppermints, knowing Peppermint does help the respiratory system. I wanted to see how she did and what was going on. I hadn't seen any snot a the time so I walked her up to the indoor and she was coughing pretty hard on the walk up, did one lap around the indoor and walked back down, still coughing hard on the way down. I jumped down and went to her face, she had snot coming out both nostrils. I'm hoping that the walking was just helping it work its way out of her system. It kind of scared me thinking she had something bad, but I had Sandy come down and listen to her lungs and she even listened to her heart. Said her heart sounded great and her lungs were clear, she had large lungs, and I know she's got a huge heart. My idea of a huge heart and medically thinking huge heart are two different things. Heidi's given me her all the last few months of working, now it's my turn to give her my all. I'm going to talk to Rex in the morning if I see him and see if there's anything I can give Heidi to help boost her system to help fight off the cold. I'll have Sandy call Park Equine if something is array still come Monday.
Well today was the big kicker for me. It was the last day Jess will do the rabbits. So now if I am out past dark, I have to do the rabbits in the dark myself. I think it's now the time to put a heavy thought into them. I've got to palpate all four does I have bred tomorrow. A couple of them are slated for butcher if they are being evil still and because they just are not wanted in my barn. I needed to put some thoughts into them a bit more, sooner. But I haven't. I needed to do this a while ago. Well it will be going into them tomorrow as I palpate and clean cages. I need to chose what I'm going to do and how I'm going to go about my future.
Willow is great. Still working at heeling and holding her attention. It's actually been pretty good other than that really. I need to do more work on her. I need to do it more often than I am. I just need the weather to start cooperating so I can start going out and walking more on lunch break at work. My fingers have split so badly now at work. Right now I am siting with 4 splits on 3 fingers on my right hand. Left so far is clear of splits. Anyway. I am pushing super late for me and I do still have clinic chores, then home for rabbit chores then go pick up my thyroid med and hopefully get a training session in with Aunt Lisa. She'll be showing Tinks in March, whereas I will be going as he helper and one more outing for Willow to test her fears out in public.
Anyway, past bedtime for me. I really need to drag into bed. My brain is pretty well shutting itself off so I'm going to go pass out and sleep!
Today was hopefully the end of the craptastic weather. I lost Speedle Thursday night into Friday at some point. Thankfully I knew he was going to go soon and he was the second longest living rabbit I ever had- followed by Gabriel who was a year older and I lost last January. I know there will never be another Gabriel or another Speedle but that ended my non dutch rabbits. My brain told me it was time to completely get rid of my rabbits. There's only 4 that I care about- Connie, Natalie, Raven and Eclipse. But I can't do it. I might keep only those dutch and one blue buck to breed them with. I might still breed very lightly. I may pick up a different breed, just a pair or something. Not sure yet. The rabbits are an off spot for me right now.
Had another unplanned day off from work but in the morning I still have Clinic duties to take care of and dad will ride with me and I'll drop him off at Grandma's and then I'll go all the way up to the clinic and take care of everything there. Then it'll be home to fix my car again. The belt came off today halfway to the interstate because of the deep slush. Whoops, now I know why the splash guard is supposed to be on the car. Well we just have to put the belt back on and then rivet or zip tie the plash guard back on so it doesn't do this again. Plus I also have to clear out my truck and get it running again. I'll have to throw bunch of the cinder blocks in the back for weight until I can get to Lowes for some tubes of sand. The truck does need to run again, Hopefully it'll start for me, I haven't run it in a week now. Hopefully it will run just fine.
I will have to get Willow working again, I haven't done hardly any training work in a week with her. It's been so fun at work on the lunch breaks- plus I have only worked two days this week- which drove me batty. So even if I can't meet up with Lisa's tomorrow for a training session at Lowes then at least I have to get her working out on a walk or something. I know in the morning when I go to the clinic, I fully intend to take her with me. Drop dad off at Grandma's and take her to the clinic, then back to pick up dad and then the stop at Lowes I'll bring her inside and see what happens. I'll bring some paper towels or napkins in just in case, but she's never had an accident. First time I ever plan on it is when it'll bit me in the butt.
Heidi was great, I saw her real quick- like 5 minutes- on Wednesday. Because she was the calmer easier to walk horse out of the pasture boards, she was walked up to the upper barn and that's where she stayed in those very cold nights. She was perfectly fine with it and was happy to see me. I wish it had been warmer and I could have seen her longer and gotten another ride in. We're doing so good riding and it's been awesome. Hopefully soon.
Monday morning I'm going to go up to my doctor's office to at least let them know that my last round of antibiotics didn't work at all, and then it settled down into my chest. I've given in and sent to heavily using the doTERRA to hopefully help. I need some of the tension blend for this headache. That'll be next month. I just wish I fully knew what was going on in my head why I've had this headache for months now. It wanes to tolerable and then comes back to more intolerable. I had the chills so bad the other night I finally broke down and took NyQuil. It helped me to sleep and that's when it really settled into my chest. Now hack up a storm- On Guard and Breathe on board and it's holding steady. Now for more sleep.
Okay here goes with a half negative post. I can only picture it right now, but I'll do my best to start with positives. The snow fall that we got Monday into Tuesday was a nice 10 inches but boy was it a bear to clear on Tuesday. Dad got out for work which was a perk for him, but I was told to stay home due to road conditions so I shoveled out the driveway a few times. I got to a few points and gave up. Dad's truck can make it in and out and when his truck wouldn't back in tonight my little ford actually started up and ran for me. I pulled my car out of the way and let dad back in where my car was. Then I drove the car farther down the road to Satterfield and came home. I was glad that my car started, gives me hope for work Thursday morning.
My enthusiastic drives for the doTERRA have been more interesting, especially after being pent up these last two days here at home. I finally got my thyroid blend mixed up and boy does it burn against my throat. I'll keep after it for at least a week or two and see how well it comes up from there. I started to try and talk Jess and mom into at least considering them. I'm still trying to think of the best way to present it to some of the girls at the barn and see if they're interested in at least learning.
I know on the rabbit front- I barely ever talk about them. I have myself set up for 2 shows this spring. If I still fail miserably at these shows then I'll be done. I'll breed off and on for babies but I'm not going to push them anymore. 4 shows a year and that's it. 2 in the spring, 2 in the fall. I'm going to be showing Willow until she at least tells me she doesn't want to anymore. Willow's been acting kind of funny since Sunday. I think she knew the bad weather was what was keeping her from her playmate, Sadie. I still hope to find a better job but I will make things work at Boonesboro while I am there.
I'm hoping tomorrow when I get going I'll time myself leaving home and to the clinic going up to Owingsville and down the interstate all the way to Winchester then down to the clinic. After stopping for a visit there, I'll stop and visit grandma and bring her some of her dinners. I know tomorrow's supposed to be colder than it was today but I will deal with that as I go. Then afterwards I am stopping and at least giving Heidi a couple of kisses.
Horses is the sore spot for me, I am jealous. I am seriously jealous right now. Kylie has more time than I do and not as much cold intolerant as I am but she was out at her barn today and was able to play with Gus(the mule), tomorrow going to ride Rayna(the Clyde) and I've always loved Amber. I look for pictures of Amber every time I hear she's gone to the barn and nothing. I wish I could win the lotto to buy Amber from her. I really miss seeing pictures of her. I know right now I could never afford to board a second horse and I know if Kylie has to get rid of one of them before she comes to KY or afterwards, Amber will be first to go. I'm so jealous I really want her, she's such a good mare. I know I'm not the only one that thinks that about Amber but she's a lovely mare. I think Amber and Heidi would make a good pair. If I had the money I'd offer to ship Amber down earlier and put her on pasture board with Heidi before she moves down here and I could spend the winter working on both Heidi and Amber. But that's still well over a year away before she moves down here, if she does. Heidi can be my trail horse, whereas Amber I could actually show with if I ever got that far.
Who knows. I'm tired, day off tomorrow with things to do. Another possible 1-3 inches of snow again tonight. I'm watching Criminal Mind's reruns until I fall asleep.
Life is going somewhere! Okay so no I didn't win the big $500+ Mega millions- heck I did buy a ticket and got a single number on it. But I was trying at least! Got to contribute my couple bucks to the jackpot. Maybe now I can play on the lower pot and actually win! LOL. I doubt it. Gotta work for the joys in life. I have always been raised to work for what you get. The harder you work the better you can get. I have worked hard to get out of the dull lifeless job at Nestle to a better one at Boonesboro and I am hoping to continue to move up until I get where I want to be.
I just joined the doTERRA consultants as one. I'm working to give myself the courage and knowledge to get out there and share them and just give myself something that I do know and do understand. I haven't felt this way about something since I worked at C.R.Bard. Maybe it's another piece of the puzzle that I have been missing. I know the vet's I work with don't think much of them but I just wish that they were a little more open minded. I heard Rex complain the other day and the others along side him about this one little older dog that the owners had been treating with Frankincense with Kidney failure and an abscess. Personally that wouldn't have been my choice to use to treat with but sometimes folks don't fully think things through and I still think if it's something that's not clearing up within a few days go to a doctor. I quite frankly, didn't say anything and I should have maybe. Maybe not quite the right time or place to do so.
I mentioned and have been talking to Rachel about them and she apparently had been exposed to them before but she's willing to learn from me. Part of it makes me wonder why. Why is she interested in it now when she could have learned more from Lisa. Is she just listening to me ramble on or is it because I'm so enthusiastic about the oils as they've uplifted my mood so much that's it's insane, thrilling and strange. My life and world have changed and it's 'New Year, New You' as it's been.
I can't wait for the weather to warm up a little more again. We dropped back down into the 20s again and I haven't been up to see Heidi. If I do the rabbit run tomorrow I will dress warm enough to stop and see her at least for a little bit. Feed her and give her a few peppermints. I miss her and I am kind of excited to see her. I'll be working on Thursday after work to bring the horses in and such. SoI will see Heidi on Thursday no matter what.
Then I've started marking on the calendar at work for days off. First up is the dog show-which I am seriously not ready right now- then so far afterwards is a Rabbit show and lastly Rolex weekend. Rolex weekend Friday will be spent with Rachel and Kylie up at Rolex watching Dressage. Saturday will be a barn day for me, and I'm aiming to set up a doTERRA class that evening hopefully at the barn. Kylie, Rachel will both be there and I am hoping several of the other girls will be there. Well bed time for me. So I need to finish up my novel and go to sleep. it's 10:30 and I'm yawning my jaws off. Bunnies first thing in the am, then a bunny sale/run and then home for the warmth.
Well I have done some more reflection and I'm in full on get better and make it better with my life mode. Tomorrow will be a quick stop to the walk-in clinic to get something for this sinus infection and get rid of it once and for all. Been fighting it for months and now I'm back to the queasy, thumping headache, ear pained headache, jaw pain and everything kind of sinus infection. Time to get something to kill it. Then step forward and on to better things for me.
Heidi's doing awesome. We rode really well Saturday afternoon. Two full laps- one in each direction of posting trot then down the long diagonals. I quit on a good note because I didn't want Heidi to get too hot plus she had been amazing. I had intended to ride again today but the wind kept me off, I wasn't feeling the greatest because of the sinus infection. It was almost 60 out when I got there and even in two layers I was chilled. I know it's not good but I went and put Heidi's sheet on her and called it a day. Got home had lunch with the family and been home ever since. I had a good while playing with Willow outside.
I still worry at times about letting her run loose but so far she's been really good at coming back to me. The wind made it hard for her to hear me at times but she still came running back anyway. She's such a good girl. I'm not understanding how I had my doubts that I had before. She's been the missing piece in my life.
I messed with my rabbits some today and I think I am going to limit them. I have one buck coming down from Rachel out of Penelope's lines that I will keep and I think after this spring litter out of Connie to Romeo will be her last, she doesn't produce well at all and she's just not as happy being a momma and not happy on the show table, she's happy being a pet. Natalie's happier as a mommy or on the show table but she's just over 3 years old now. Retired off the show table. She's registered and granded which was my goals in the long run for both Natalie and Connie. I have done so and now I am happy with them. I just wish I could get a Chin to take a BOB or a BOS before I bow out completely. I'm working strictly blue, steel and Chin now. No more torts despite that was the first color I was introduced to and fell in love with. I have seriously missed having a few blues in the barn so I'm going to try and get a blue buck and raise a few of my own again. I kept Blue's black daughter, called her Eclipse and I fully intend to cross her back to a blue buck later on down the road after showing her this year. I only have a few for showing this year, steel sr doe, black jr doe, steel sr buck so hopefully I can find a nice blue buck somewhere down the line, hopefully it'll be a good one out of Penelope's lines.
I am still thinking about showing all three if I can find a better job and even if I add DoTerra to my list. I need to find something to curb my interest in the oils. I have even found a few competitors ads on my Facebook ad section and I enjoyed spending some time investigating them and seeing if I could learn even half of what the DoTerra describes with their oils. DoTerra is by far the most interesting history rich one to learn. Why I'm on such a learning spree I don't know.
I need to go to sleep soon. I have plenty of things to do in the morning and I really need to get them done. Sooner the better.
I spent some energy being mad and pissed off at my car but I drove it home Wednesday night, leaving my truck sitting over at my aunts. I knew darn good and well Wednesday night into Thursday we were supposed to get snow and the car does drive better through the snow- let's just face it. I am still a far better driver with a front wheel drive than I am a rear wheel drive-especially a one wheel drive pickup. I trust my truck to start and run when the car fails me. It's 'stepped' up to the challenge each and every time the car failed me. But now that the belt has been replaced, which I am glad I got to help, I have noticed a lot better driving out of the car and it appears to be getting a bit better gas mileage. So I shall see how the rest of the month plays out. I know I swore up and down a tree that I was going to get rid of the car. I shall see how this runs now.
Jess, tonight, was saying something about possibly buying my car from me. All I could retort was $2500 and it's yours, I've got more than that in the car. She said 'ouch' and didn't make offers to it again. I'm glad of it, I really do have more than $2500 in that car total. $1600 to buy, $800 in work from City Tire, $100 in brakes so far and $250 in tires. That's $2750 right there, that doesn't count a few other things small things that I've done to the car. So no, not letting that car go that cheap. Plus she's got $95.50 to pay off that was Ayden's. She wanted his eye checked so the bloodwork was to make sure it wasn't a deep infection, eye staining and then eye drops. She got it cheap. Bloodwork along is well over $100, then add eye staining and the meds and she'd have been looking pricey. But Ayden's got it done and covered.
I guess I should make the choice soon to sell out of the rabbits. I'm going to keep one buck- a Penelope grandson- to breed with my girls on and off each year. I'm not keeping too many anymore either. Natalie, Connie, Raven, Eclipse. Two blacks, two steels. I am still considering the chin pair. It's a chin carrier steel buck and a full chin doe. I might keep them for a little longer and see what I can get out of them but right now the rabbits are falling farther off my radar due to time and money constrictions. Though I might be getting Chloe in, Chase's last doe that he hasn't been able to sell. I promised him she could live it out with me or until he wanted her back. So things can only get better from here. I will make choices as I need to go.
Heidi has been awesome. Wednesday has solidified her learning capabilities. I carried the riding crop to help keep her attention and it got her to focus more on what I was asking her. Now with working so much on myself now I have been doing much better with my own form, so Wednesday I put it all together. We trotted the long sides and long diagonals of the indoor arena. We keep going like we are and by spring she should be working on jumping. Hopefully we can do it. I'm going to start working on Una as well. I want to get sport boots for Una's legs so I need to measure her cannon bones for the proper size boots. Tomorrow I shall do this. Maybe I'll measure Heidi as well but with her feathering she can't wear the full sport boots but she can wear splints hopefully. Either way I'm also thinking to sell my cheapie english and my aussie and maybe get a saddle that will fit Una. Sadly Lisa's saddle is too wide for her(and not quite wide enough for Heidi- go figure) and the cheapie saddle which doesn't fit anyone that I can/want to ride.
Well it's close to bed time so I need to get Willow out to pee and get myself into bed.
I know I blew my top two days ago when my car almost broke down. The car is down for a little while anyway but I was so angry- I've cooled off since then but it's still highly frustrating that I keep putting more work into it and just not paying anything off yet. The job fair I had anticipated going to last Saturday was a bust because the job fair was Friday not Saturday. So emailed the resume in, and even have an employee reference in there so maybe that can give me a little boost and I can get out of Boonesboro. It's not that I hate working there but I need the money offered by Alltech to get part of my life back. I'm hoping with the higher pay I will be able to catch back up on my bills, and even move forward, get Willow's AKC number for Rally, get her showing, get Heidi trained and even get her jumping. It's going to mean going back to 12 hour shifts, but they aren't so bad if they are set up correctly.
The car, it pissed me off so bad. I am VERY happy that I calmed back down by the time Cathryn got there. I hated blowing up the way I did at Lisa's-where the car still sits- but I just didn't handle it well at all. Mostly because I couldn't take anymore. Now I owe dad $32 for the new drive belt. If I don't get this other job then I'm going to highly consider selling the car and getting a different one. If I can at least get this job I'll hang onto the car and just keep fighting to keeping it running. I am really ready considering playing the lotto and praying to win.
Willow's actually coming along quite well, she did really well at the show going to watch. I think the March show she'll be tagging along as a spectator again as I won't have her AKC number by then to show with, I just don't have the money. I may put that on my credit card as well. Gets it done and get's it ready to go. I still don't think I'll be ready.Willow still has a ways to go on heeling before we can really compete. I'm pushing on it as best as I can but it's just going to take me a little longer.
Heidi's been awesome. After the dog show on Saturday I tacked up late for a late ride with Shana and Erika and Heidi was great. She was extremely tired when we got done for I had never ridden her late or after dark. It was a LONG ride - touch over 2 hours, and it was well past dark. I couldn't head down to the barn until Erika was ready because she had a head light on her helmet.
Tomorrow is a day off and after checking and taking care of my bunnies I will go up and take a ride on Heidi- not a terribly long one but a ride none the less, then if it's still decent temp wise out I will give Una a bath. I hate the idea of falling in love with another horse that isn't mine but Una makes it hard. She really has no human to love her and as part of my work board I am supposed to help take care of Perry's horses or the ones who's owners never really show up. Like Una, and Thor aren't Perry's but on my list. Misty, Mary, Cha-Cha, Pixie, TC and Bootsie are on the list as Perry's horses. I think he even would like me to care for horses at the other barn which I don't know, Yet, where it is.
It's almost 10 pm and I'm exhausted. It's time to let my mind sleep and rest. Tomorrow's going to be a good day. After bunnies is the horses, then Aunt Lisa's to chat with her and also Cathryn about the doTerra.
