Well I guess now the hunt for an apartment in Winchester is on. I googled and found one in Winchester. Going to go check it out on a day off in the coming weeks. $500, everything included pets up to 35 pounds. Hopefully I can talk them into going up to 40#'s since Aussie's go up to 40#, if not I'll have to look into a Miniature Aussie. Either way, I know I want an Aussie and Speedle will be coming to live inside with me until he passes away as well. Now what to do with the last remaining 8 rabbits that I'll have. Not completely sure but hopefully I can put them up either at the barn(I'll be moving Heidi back to Tamarack) or I'll have to ask aunt Lisa, if I can put them there, under the notion that I will be out every night to take care of them. I'm going to put them all onto self feeders but I like to check the water bottles daily. I've also got to start bleaching them, get them clean again. I've already got the two cage sets that I'll be moving. The big 4 hole ones that dad and I built and the duel 30 x 30's.
The two bucks will live in the bottom two cages- that'll be a blue, Archie, and a gray, Zachary, and I'll have 6 does- Natalie, Connie, Raven, Hermione, Iria and Emily. That'll leave two empty holes for when and if I ever go back into breeding and showing them. Maybe they'll just get old with me and die, I don't know yet. I want to see where this leads me.
I'm trying to plan ahead, trying to see what I can do and where I can go with this. August is my planning month, see what my paychecks will be like and then between September and October get everything rolling. Get things back in place. Heidi will most likely be first, she'll have to go back out onto Pasture board at first, or see what I can work out a plan with Perry to move her onto full and leave her there. She's kind of miserable at this point by herself but she does like going in and out at free will to graze and she picked up the Spirulina wafers happily, so maybe it's all helping.
Well it's off to start the last three days of Nestle. I'm very happy about this.
So much stuff and so little time! I know over the coarse of the last few days at work, all I've done is managed to make my supervisor mad. Of coarse it doesn't help when he needs a class in psychology as well. I've been short tempered due to some back pain and yesterday I called out of work even though I know it hurt them badly. Back was okay and I think part of it was the work boots. It is really time to move on though.
I Will be moving on from Nestle now though! I'll be starting at Boonesboro Animal Clinic Monday, doing a training day tomorrow before going back for my last three days at Nestle. I'm beyond very excited. It's been an answer to my prayers. Heidi's home for now. Hopefully with the new job I'll be able to work with her every evening that isn't raining and get her moved into a new boarding barn.
I feel completely terrible bringing Heidi home, she misses her companions but I'm hoping that eventually I'll have her at another safe boarding barn and she'll be happy and comfortable once again. I really want to be able to see her way more often, Tamarack is still a bit too far out of the way.
I still think I might be making a mistake bringing Heidi home. But I need to cut some kind of costs down and with the hours I'm working I just couldn't do it. Plus some nights when I get home from work all I want to do is go hug her neck and get some kisses. Hopefully soon I won't have to deal with Nestle.
I can't help but get anxious. I really hope I get and can take the job at Boonesboro. Three days of Nestle that I have to struggle and drag myself through before I can get the chance. I don't typically interview well, so I'm going to give it my best shot. I'm ready to start over job wise and I'm ready to give it my all. I can barely give Nestle my time. I certainly don't give it anything else. I'm eager I'm ready.
I wanted to get one last ride in at Tamarack but it was too hot, well I was too hot by the time I got to the barn. Sold a few rabbits first and then went out so I gave goofy girl a bath. At least she's really clean.
Soon, I'm hoping, praying and pleading that I can take this job and grow with it. Turn it into a Career. I'm 30 years old and something finally did give. I'm very thankful for everything that has happened so far. I still hate the idea of leaving Sandy behind. she's been the best friend I haven't had in a long time.
I FINALLY got up to see Heidi today, I'm way beyond exhausted so this won't be long but Sandy and I are both certain that Misty won't be coming home with Heidi, so I'm just bringing Heidi home alone. I'll have to get a hold of the Warmblood farm to possibly bring her there eventually. For the meantime she'll have to stay here by herself. It'll be good though, she needs a little quiet her time.
Though on a good positive note- I have a job interview with Boonesboro Veterinary clinic. That made my day. So now I'm praying to god I get and can take this job. I'm so sore and over exhausted from Nestle that I fear I'll never get rested back up.
I'll miss Sandy at the barn and all the extra time I had to stop and visit Aunt Lisa but- a girls gotta do, what a girls gotta do. Save up some money, if I get the assistant job at the vets office I can hopefully go back to school and get my tech certificate. Happy Days
I thought some more about Perry's offer and realized it still doesn't help me. I need to move her home. I really do. I know the half price board is awesome and everything but not being able to see her will not help me at all. Since I'll still be driving halfway to Lexington to see her. Maybe Perry will reconsider and let me take Misty. I'd hate to have to find Heidi some kind of new friend. I will do it if I have to but pull her home, gives me the time to build up a little extra money and get a little car and get rid of some more rabbits. I really need to do that. Then get myself back to school I still need to get a hold of ACC and SUNY Cobleskill and get my transcripts. I'm going to keep applying to the several vet's offices, eventually, hopefully, someone will need help and take the chance on me. They do, then I can go to school with the backing of whatever Vet's office I am working for and continue my education as well.
I'm hoping I can get Brent to take a bunch of these rabbits, just get rid of them literally. He'll be here Wednesday night after I get home from work. I'm messaging Lonnie Harper see if he's interested in the Chins. I'll see if he'll trade me a gray buck and I'll also message Kevin Hooper to see if Kevin would trade me a gray buck for my Chin buck. Right now I just need the decent stock that can help carry me beyond what I've got here. I'm hoping, really hoping to get a nice gray buck baby out of Iria that will be a Chin carrier. Raise it up to cross to my chin does to add the body type into the line. I want to keep less than 10 rabbits. A message as been sent to Lonnie and he usually keeps in touch with Kevin Hooper. So hopefully that will work out in the long run, it'll mean losing Eliot but it'll be for the best. I have his daughter, Hermione, and his niece, Fiona. Fiona and Iria are both bred to him so that should help get me a few nice babies to raise up. I'm going to cull hard on both litters for mismarks so they don't raise anywhere near as many babies and hopefully they do a good job raising their babies.
Still hoping for the opportunity to get a dog. I tossed the idea back and forth about getting a Mini Aussie instead of a full size. But my heart's still set on a full size since they still aren't that big either. 40-50 pounds I can handle. I'm a long ways away from getting a dog. Need a better job so I have time to train and work with it. Red merle Aussie is still on my radar, it's just set back farther right now.
Well thankfully it's bed time. I'll be able to sit and chat with Sandy tomorrow and kind of banter ideas off of her.
Perry's given me a big choice that I can make. I explained to him the reason why I was asking about bringing Misty home with Heidi so I could go back to school, but then he offered to do a half board, half work board. I'm seriously considering it. I love it at Tamarack. It's so quiet, peaceful and I'm just happy there. I'm kind of happy he's offered it. I don't even mind continuing to work with his horses. I ADORE Misty. Mary's just Mary, same as TC, and Dublin. I do like Bootsie so it shouldn't be too hard to work with one of them each time I'm there. Misty's like a second horse for me anyway. Misty always looks for me now when I come into the barn. I think with enough time and once I get an Aussie for Heidi I'll be able to take her with me when we go for trail rides. Tie Misty's lead to the horn and just go! It's still an exciting prospect. I'm looking to start saving up, buy a little car that does much better on gas so I can run to and from the barn easier and start working on getting some more college coarse's under me so I can hopefully get my Vet Tech certificate and get a better job so I can afford to do things again.
I had to look about my barn again. I'm hoping to do a lot of work on the outside of the barn shortly. I'm taking the pen behind the barn down, hopefully tomorrow. Not sure yet what I'm going to do with those posts yet. I'll have to dig them holes along the wire fence and take out a few of the metal stakes. Thinking stakes, I did get the fence hole cut in the back of the pasture. So now my 6 foot gate that dad hung for me over a year ago is now useable! Allen and I planted the slam post over 4th of July and it's taken me a couple weeks to make it useable. I'm slacking on many levels.
Over the next couple of weeks I have to work harder and get things paid off and caught back up. I'm back to toying with a few ideas of loans to get a few things paid off, but right now I want to push and struggle! I'd rather fight and keep it more manageable than to fall to seeking loans or something else. I want to get everything paid off, it might mean working 5 days a week without fail but I can do it. I may not like the idea, but I need to. Especially if I get the Level 4, it'll be a higher pay grade. It also means less time with Heidi, but get bills paid and caught up? Hmm. Well I will have to think on this some more. The rabbits have to get cut back even farther.
I had a very short ride today on Heidi. It was good, we started doing some work on neck reining. I did get a lot done today though. I had a good ride yesterday on Heidi, a short ride learning training ride today, then home to get the lawn mowed, Then ate dinner, and went back outside to spray the fence line down to kill those weeds. I did sneak a short half mile bike ride in. I have to make more of a habit of doing so more often. It was a nice bike ride. We aren't in the best of places to be out bike riding. So long as I keep my attention on the road and keep my ears open for traffic I should be alright.
I'm kind of tired. I think I did do what I could to catch up on everything today. I've gotten so much done. I'm starting to look at colleges again I'm hoping to get one of those Day shift jobs or even do online college again. I first have to see if I can get a copy of my transcripts from both ACC and SUNY Cobleskill and a copy of my diploma from ACC.
Thinking a part way to my friends. I'm going to really miss Sandy when I leave Tamarack, since I have no real close friends anyway. I have since stopped counting Kylie, Rachel and Michelle as close friends. Kylie barely talks to me anyway, just when I start the conversation. Michelle and I barely talk but we hadn't in so long it's not unusual for the two of us to not talk. Rachel's the same way. She'll tell me something and then wait long enough so goes back on what she says and now with her dating John I'm a complete after thought because I'm not there and I don't trust John. Not to mention when she sits there and drones on and on about this or that with him I just get completely disinterested because she had said she wouldn't do that but still does. So, sadly, I haven't missed talking to her in a long time. Every now and then I chat for a couple minutes with her on Facebook but I don't miss it.
Time for me to go to bed and hope in the morning I have the time to do plenty of other things before I go to work!
I've done quite a bit of mental musing through everything that's been going on. Especially after Cathryn and Boo told me to go back to school- repeatedly- at Breyerfest. I've got 2 weeks left now until Heidi comes home, and if what Sandy was telling me today, Misty will be coming along with her as her companion. Perry already knows Misty only has a few years left. Now hopefully I can get the day shift job, at least one of them, that I have bid on so I can go back to school at night and if I do get the line 5, I also have weekends that I can go back to school. I can always keep Heidi home for a while especially if I have only a couple years with Misty here as her companion before I have to really worry about much of anything. I'll keep slowly working on her training but hopefully at the same time go back to school for a Vet tech certificate.
I have several rabbits that I'm going to get rid of. Less than 10 is right now the goal. Sadly this time Eliot did make the cut list in favor of trading him towards a nice gray buck. The gray buck can multipurpose with the chin does for chin carriers and with the steel does for gray and steel offspring. I'll be keeping Archie since I can produce blues out of a vast majority of my steel does. Last buck cage will be for Speedle.
I had such a wonderful day today up at the barn. I just tacked up and we meandered around. We did quite a few neat things and I would have tried the pool had I thought Heidi wouldn't have destroyed it. But I think obstacle trail rides would be way more suited for her. So I'm going to shoot to sell my Wintec and buy an aussie. As much as I want to do a bazillion things it always comes down to money. Thankfully I won't have to buy Heidi a friend with Misty coming. Now to continue to teach her to neck rein.
Yesterday was just awesome. Short on sleep so I was a little groggy most of the day, and over heating because even the water fountains at the horse park weren't very cold. I should have, in hindsight, gotten a few bottles and froze them with water about halfway so I'd have had cold drink most of the day. I think my favorite part was the jousting. It looks like so much fun, not something in the end I would have done but still looked like fun! The one guy- so gorgeous. I'm not usually a fan of long hair on a guy, but some guys can wear it good- he was one of them. What a HUNK. If someone had been around that could have, I would have had my picture taken with him and his steed Phantom.
How can you go wrong? Good looking man, good looking horse. Who can go wrong? Maybe it's time that I actually did go and look around at guys that are a little more attainable than one that travels and shows. I don't even remember his name, just that he's from Ontario, Canada. But couldn't help to want to drool over him.
Breyerfest was much more fun with the larger group of people. Little harder to keep track of everyone but that's what cell phones were for! Hopefully next year on top of the 7 we had this year we can get cousin Jennifer and her three girls, Natalie, Bella and Lily and cousin Mickie(Logan's mom). Sadly there is no group photo of us. We should have gotten one somewhere along the line but we didn't. I seriously overheated and dehydrated some, the water wasn't cold in the fountains and to buy another bottle was $3. They could get the ridiculous prices easily. Learned from it this year, I don't recall staying that long the last time I went, 2 years ago.
Multiple times Aunt Cathryn kept telling me I needed to go back to school and get a better job. I'm seriously trying to get a different job as it stands so I can go back to school nights or weekends or both. I'm trying. I really do though. I'd love to have a dayshift job, go to school at night. Might mean being overly tired or what not at work but Nestle doesn't care for it's employees so why should we care about our work? I had half a mind to call in 'sick' today but I'm training someone so there's extra on top of keeping my occurrences down so I can get one of the day shift jobs I bid on. It's kind of exciting to do it. I'm ready to get out of here and get a better life than the one I currently have. It's time to better myself. I'm looking at a serious rabbit herd decrease to under 10. I'll think on it more tonight as I'm trying to kill time to 1 am when I get to come home.
For a couple months now I've been fighting with the sinus congestion, pain and pressure. The diffuser doesn't take care of it completely so I'm doing what I can to get rid of it, and at first I thought it was this, that or the other thing. Right now I'm going to try cutting the yogurt out of my diet, see if that helps. At this point I'm going to try whatever I can see what it is and what I can do. I'm so tired of the sinus headaches, sinus pressure, stuffy head and so on.
I went up to see Heidi today and it was great. Misty came over and nickered to me as I came in the barn, since she's first stall on the right, Heidi's last stall on the right. Then I saw her face, she's as itchy as Heidi. Poor old girl wanted some attention. I figured my big girl can wait a few minutes so I brushed her down and she's beyond filthy. No amount of brushing would have gotten her clean so I took her out to the wash rack and gave her a quick short bath. She felt much better afterwards.
Then she was content, so I gave my big girl some loving and brushing and cut the rest of the braids out and brushed her out while Sandy finished up Val. Then we saw Victor come in alone and go up to the top, so I fed the bottom barn and Sandy helped me turn out everyone. Victor was quite thankful since Juan was still over with Perry doing hay. I was telling Sandy how I need to find a good quiet horse like Misty to keep Heidi company. She thinks that Perry might let me bring her home with Heidi so long as I keep her in good shape. I don't know. It's weird, she's older but she gets along with Heidi so well.
I'm starting to regret choosing to take Heidi home. She's happy there with Misty. I still have plenty to do to get a pen built for her to eat in. If Perry does let me take Misty home with her, I'll have to ask Nelson to trailer, Perry or make two trips since both mares won't fit in the trailer together. They would fit in the trailer together side by side and they couldn't move. Well I"m going to sleep on it and see what happens.
I had to get moving today and tomorrow I'll have to leave earlier so I can get home and mow the lawn, make my little 'tv' stand to replace the one in my room, but it'll be just a table. The current TV stand in my room covers my floor vent with it's shelving, the homemade one won't have shelving. Thus leaving it open to let more cool air into my room. Meant to build it a while ago but never got to it. Breyerfest soon!
Today has actually been a most wonderful day. I got to sit and talk to Allen for quite a while, it's so nice to actually be able to physically talk to someone that knows the way I think. I used what part of the money that Lisa said she didn't want to do a few more chores today. Boy did I wear myself out! I went this morning and got a post and cement for my gate in the back(that dad hung almost a year ago), got some of the sprays we needed for the rose bushes and the fruit trees, round-up (I couldn't find the 24D) to spray down the fence line and most especially the wild rose bushes. Sadly it was too breezy to start spraying, maybe tomorrow! Then Allen and I took a bike ride into Preston. I was partly thankful that the bike tire went flat on the ride home. I got 4-4.5 miles- 3.5 into Preston and a half to full mile home before we saw it flat. I had to call dad to come get me with my truck so I didn't ruin the rim. I don't think I'd have made it back up the hill by the Amish farm. Then Allen and I went up to Walmart and picked up new tires and tubes for the bike(both mine/dads and Jess' so Jess can start riding with me). I got the new handle grips put on at least!
Still a LOT of things I need/want to do tomorrow before I go back to Nestle. Calling and hopefully visiting the Warmblood farm, going and visiting Aunt Lisa/Uncle Jim if he gets a few spare minutes to come out instead of working and go visit Heidi and give her a bath if nothing else! Then get home with enough time to help dad replace the tires on the bikes and go for another ride. It's good for me, kick start some weight loss and I quite enjoyed it.
After all our running around tonight Al and I just relaxed in the pool for a little while. Or what Allen was calling a controlled puddle. We got to talking, about cars and my rabbits. Now I'm showered and relaxing on my bed. I have plenty of thoughts running through my head and he made a few things even more clear to me. I really don't do anything with my rabbits at all anymore. I can't seem to sell anything, so why am I bothering? Yes some I won't get rid of but I should bring my number down some more. We talked about apartment living and what I could start to look for and everything.
Still have my thoughts on getting rid of almost all the rabbits and getting a dog. Allen said there's no point in having all three really. I really have no plans for Heidi or the rabbits anymore. I have no ambition to get Heidi far enough trained to show her, I don't get out to rabbit shows except 3 or 4 a year. And even those few shows I do get to aren't big shows and to this point, I don't do that well. So I'm going to keep Heidi as a trail mount. She's not thrilled with ring work and I'm slowly learning to trust myself and her out in the open for trail riding.
I am so wore out today now. First time in a long time I'm physically wore out. That bike ride took a lot more out of me than I had expected it to. Then again I hadn't rode in over 3 years. Time to hit the sack and get it over with now. Lots to do tomorrow and certainly less time to do it in.
Today was a step in the right direction. Drifter found herself a new home. Thankfully the child's father is a farrier so he's getting her feet going back into the right direction plus he was quite happy to finally find a good quiet horse for his 10 year old to ride. He'd bought a few already and found them to not be what they were sold as. So sweet pea girl has found a home. It'll be a long time before I do anymore rescue's. I really don't intend to do anymore. I'm going to have dad mow the pasture down when he gets the chance and then leave it. I'm going to fight some more and do what I can to keep Heidi where she is until I get to move her to a different boarding barn.
I'm going to call the one boarding barn back tomorrow and try to check it out Monday. They breed warmbloods and she does do some training and what not there. Everything she has is larger sized so a small draft should fit right in.
I almost sold a few bunnies today. Got someone to call back tomorrow to see what he's interested in. Hopefully I can soon get these guys sold.
I'm quite content. Allen and I are sitting here watching TombRaider. Tomorrow, Grandma will be here with Nell. Then last day off for my mini vacation will be to go up and see Heidi and check out that other barn! Can't wait!
I've done some pretty good thinking and choices. Walking away from some things should only open the door to a few new opportunities. I've chosen to move away from the past and grow off of it. It's about time. I've been lead on and miss guided and forgotten by so many people and after mentally relaxing I've chosen it's time to move on. Good bye NY past. Yes I know my lessons from it, I will not make those mistakes again but I'm tired of trying to hang onto what I had and time to go forward with something new. Time for a change. I'm planning a few more changes for myself, my fur babies and my future. Time for working harder and making progress. I'm more comfortable with what I have to do and where I need to go.
I'm going to make an even harder push on finding a new job. I really need to get away from Nestle, not only for my own mental and physical health but for my animals. What few I am keeping I will have to get together and get things going.
As much as I keep going back and forth on keeping Drifter or not is hard both on her and myself. I don't let her bond to me because part of me wants to find her a good home. Part of me wants to keep her for the last 10 or so years of her life that she's got left. The people that gave her and Bailey to me stopped by today and were happy to see her so fat and happy and wondered what happened to Bailey. I told her she was rehomed and Drifter might but I had to find a good home for her. I've had a few inquiries but nothing that really followed through. Going to relist tomorrow and hope that some couple wants a nice calm mare for their kids/grandkids. Drifter would do phenomenal for that. Anyway, it's late, Allen's here and I'm going up to ride Heidi tomorrow and just keep talking to her, letting her know what's going on.
