I finally have gone back to the doctors and got a bunch of tests run, still not the 3 I wanted done but those can wait for next time. I got the diagnosis of Hasimoto's hypothyroidism and it does explain so many things. I've ordered in a few books that will help me understand this disease and with any luck I can control it and learn to deal with this and move forward from here. It's an autoimmune disease of the Thyroid and it's basically where my body is making antibodies against my own thyroid. Where it comes from I don't know how it happened I don't know or understand yet but I have only read that I can put it back into remission and keep it there with a good control of medications. So next doctor visit I will have him run the other tests to see what I should be doing medication wise and see what I can't do to regain control. That should all help me on my end game of losing weight and getting fit.
The horses have been fantastic. I've been out riding, I put a saddle for Tessa on my credit card (which I shouldn't have done but I couldn't resist) and I've had her out western and with Heidi staying English I should be doing alright.
While I am still not amused with the way I look at least I am *now* got a fighting chance to get things situated and going correctly. We will continue onwards, upwards and forwards.
Willow has been fantastic she's always by my side and when she's not she's by the front door waiting for my return with eagerness. She doesn't approve of me leaving her behind but when we had hit that super hot spell of 90+ for a week I got really stressed on our drive home as she was just so flippin hot but now with it cooler again I can go back to taking her everywhere without fear and I can go back to horseback riding again. We still need to get back to some kind of training regimen but that will come with cooler temperatures. I have off for the big dog show- as I have for the past 2 years and that is going to be our interesting drive to see if we really want to go up there and 'shop' or more so look around and just basically see what's up there. It's my vacation week and I have plans to do a few things at least. Not like last year when I didn't do anything for vacation. I want to go back to Old Friends again and maybe go down to Natural Bridge and hike that with Willow. I do have my follow up at the doctors office but that is only 1 day out of the 10 I have off(well Labor day I will likely be going into work in the morning but that's all good).
Last touche subject is the rabbits. I am slowly getting them to a good point. I have finally 1 blue
english spot doe Miracle(fondly called Mirror), and the two blacks that I am keeping- Cricket and Lindsay. Lindsay's sister Miranda is going to Texas next month and a blue buck named Trick is coming in, in exchange. Transport has already been paid and I am thoroughly eager to get a good solid base of blue going. Sadly none do trace back to my original 3 English Spots but I kind of knew that was going to happen. The dutch, I think I'm going to weed down to 3 pairs, since I have a blue buck coming in this fall, Willie, I am picking up a Sassy son, which is a tort buck since that's my last hold on Syd's bloodlines. Syd is the only offspring of Neena's I kept and she was the literal only child of Kitty's, as Kitty only had 2 babies to start with and killed one of them at 3 weeks old, so Neena got weaned early. Neena was gifted to a friend and was told if she ever got rid of her to tell me and I would go get her but of coarse she sold her and the line was gone once I lost the last of the Syd related offspring. So now with Legends and Chaucer tracking back to Rafik, Sassy's son tracing back to Syd and Colby(Not my homebred Colby Jr), Legends tracing back to Sam, and Hide, Natalie and Connie all tracing back to Amelia I have my foundation lines back. I will likely keep the three bucks, Willie, Sassy's son and Chaucer and then keep 3 or 4 does total. I will still need to get a tort doe to go with Sassy's boy. He still needs a name.
All in all I actually feel like I am going the right direction in life. Things are getting muddled here and there but moving forward.