Today was a 'Me Day' type of day. I had no straight out plans for today and I was aiming to see where everything fell. Still a few more things I want to do but I may have to do them in the morning. I didn't realize it was already midnight. I'm doing my best to cool off. I'm sitting here in bed sweating. I'm calling Shaw's myself tomorrow to get them on the ball to get the AC installed.
I meandered my way over to my aunts to say 'hey' and see how they were all doing with this wonderful, disgusting heat. Give some lovins to the girls and get some prices on the doTerra so I could get some more of that ordered. I have Breathe, Lavender and Frankincense coming in plus some Deep Blue rub and hopefully that can all help me get back in control of everything. I know with the steroids that I'm taking that I'm retaining water badly so I'm starting some extra lemon into my water to help push the water out of my system and de-tox. I'm still reading the doTerra book and taking notes where I can.
Tomorrow I'm going to hopefully meet up with a guy to buy Allens truck, one more round of hopeful buyers and this time I HOPE it does go, I've been so frustrated. It just amazes me how many times I've had to explain that it doesn't cost any more to register it with NY title and plates than it would a KY one. It'll cost them more the second time around when registration comes due again because then it'll be at 'value of the truck' which is closer to $1500. It'll be rougher then, but I told this guy this. Well it's after midnight, I need some sleep. I'm hot, tired and sweating badly! Turn up the fan and go to sleep it is! Hopefully tomorrow night will be a much improved update.
I hate at times that I just can't seem to mentally take it all. I had hoped by now, 4 days into the meds, that I would be mostly back to where I should have been with my sinus'. But I'm not. I cut the prednisone in half and take half in the morning, half at supper and I see a huge difference in energy levels. I'll run hard with energy then crash out, literally. Yesterday I slept through a 40 minute meeting at work. I caught the first 5 minutes then the last 5 minutes. Thankfully I didn't snore! Then I was fine all the rest of the night. Came home, couldn't get to sleep until almost 2:30, then drag awake at 9 am and I feel like crap.
I did however, go back onto the Slim 'N Sassy more so at Aunt Lisa and Aunt Cathryn's urging. This time Armed with some DigestZen in my lunch pail-have to hid them in there under my lunch since we're not supposed to have glass anything at work- I went back and started taking them. Of coarse when the throat started to burn, like an acid reflux, I couldn't get off the floor I just worked through it and drank plenty of water. It seemed to work really well this time.
The worrisome part is always monetary issues, or so it seems. Jess still hasn't gotten another job, and in turn she should pick up working here, I don't care doing what but Dad nor I should have to come home to dirty dishes on the counter or in the sink, baskets of laundry or anything like that. Plus Ayden still needs to be taken care of, someone's going to have to pay for that. If she doesn't get a job soon, then she's going to have to rehome him. I hate to say it but right now I will not take care of his medical, he needs way more than I want to put into him. She let him get fat so now his joints are going bad, he's got an excessive drooling issue and he's gotten so clingy because she always has him stuck up her butt. It's not something I'm willing to deal with right now.
Allen's truck hasn't sold, I'm tempted to drop the price to $900, cash, as is, come pick up, type of deal. I'm going to see what I can do, see if I can get any nibbles anywhere one last time and then I'm done. The plates are getting mailed back tomorrow so someone has to pick it up as it has no plates on it. It's put a bit of a cramp on my paychecks keeping up with Heidi's board. Perry doesn't mind, I know he doesn't. I just hate thinking about it.
One more touch on, I bathed Heidi the other day, I was too hot to put on my riding pants plus waiting for a guy to see the truck that turned into a no-show, so I was in shorts, and I found her sores under her belly, so the Safe Choice isn't working either, she's getting itchy-again! I need to ask Molly if she'd just write me a prescription for the Anti-Hist and if she won't, then I'll ask Bath Co to do it. I can't have her itchy, cause that means she'll be off for the summer, no riding until it's gone.
Today was the day that Bailey went to her new home, for the most part I'm VERY happy and VERY excited. I knew I just didn't have the time to give her any attention, my pasture needs a good Lime coating to see if the grass can get growing. I didn't get much grass to get growing this year and that was a LOT of Bailey's problem. She needs a pasture to graze and finish filling in. I also never really had that much time to actually give her either. We didn't exactly trust each other but we didn't hate each other. I didn't get up to see Heidi at all today. Tomorrow night I'm hoping to go to the drive ins and watch some movies. If not I can't say I wouldn't be disappointed but I probably will be.
I had a second bad week in a row, and most of it I can blame on a sinus infection. I never did get a chance to talk to Eli so there's no date there for us. Going to the movies would have been great! Well I've still got a ways to go before I can mentally get comfortable with the idea of dating. DJ and McCandless had me wound up something awful over the week and I think that's where I got all screwed up. Second week in a row I got flustered at work a couple times and made stupid mistakes. I'm eventually going to learn and stop doing that. I think the not feeling good part had a hand in it. Hopefully by the time I go back on Tuesday I'll be a lot more clear in the head and ready to get things right. I can't stand to keep making the same mistakes over and over.
While I was sitting in the Doctor's office this morning, I don't know what had happened with the little toddler but he was screaming and crying, I had seen him in the waiting room and he had been all smiles and giggling. I just wanted to cuddle him and kiss him and make him happy again. He settled down right before he left(which was about 10 minutes before I got out). Children are so adorable. Maybe one day I can have kids of my own.
On a quick short note, I've chosen to not add any other blues to my barn. I'll be picking up a pair of blues from Clayton and if the buck comes out decent I'll keep him, if not I won't. I'll be keeping Marcie anyway, as she's a steel carrier. I want to add either another Chin doe or another Gray doe. I'm leaning on keeping Connie's steel doe baby as well for the meantime. I want to see how it's type comes out. Cutting the blues and torts are the first steps to cutting back.
Today was the last 5 day weekend I'll ever have without vacation time. I go to the 7 day schedule starting next week but this coming holiday weekend, I only work 3 days this week. It's going to be an interesting new thing to go through. I'm still waiting and searching for a new job.
I finished all my revamps for the barn that I'm going to. I may still get rid of a few more rabbits but I want to wait and see where I go from here. I'd still want to keep a few of them, but at this point I'm ready to get rid of some more of them. I have to be more selective. I want to wait and see if Penelope comes down and see where I need to go from here. I'm still contemplating a few of my other does, like Connie. I've brought her so far and it makes me cringe getting rid of her. But if I cut down to 6 does, 3 bucks total- other than it would be completely insanely crazy, I don't know what 6 I'd keep. Natalie, Raven, Penelope or Iria, Hermione or Connie and a tort doe from Carla probably? I don't know for sure. The 3 bucks would be Speedle, a Gray buck and a chin buck. I'd add a blue or tort after Speedle passes away. I don't know anything for sure right now.
I got up and enjoyed a peaceful few hours with Heidi this afternoon. We played 'peek-a-boo' around one of the trees that line the driveway.
Then after Heidi got her feet done, oh how I LOVE Micheal's trim work, I went up to the top to check on Tru's nose. The sunburn on it is really bad so I've been doing what I can to soften it up with Aloe and heal the nose more. She's still such a good girl.
There will be three days until I can see my girls again. I can't wait to see them again, maybe this weekend I can get Heidi a bath and get a good workout on Tru AND Spencer. I feel like I've been neglecting Spencer.
Tru and Heidi have been the best two friends I could have asked for, in animals. Well maybe, who knows, I'll have a date next weekend. Maybe!
I got a TON of things done today. I felt bad not getting over to Heidi a bit more this weekend than I did. I had intended to get over there more. 3 out of 5 days isn't bad. Tomorrow will be a pedicure kinda day. Heidi needs her feet done. I got a lot of the rabbits claws done today too. A few of them left, and I'm still paring them down and getting rid of them. I think I'm going to sell out of blue, except Marcie and torts except the new baby that's a Sassy Mou baby. I'll have mainly steels, a few chins, a couple grays and then the single blue and tort pair. I've contemplated a fair bit on selling Connie. It wouldn't be an easy sell but Natalie's still a far superior doe. Better producer and holds a better body type.
I got plenty done today, I'm glad. Got my teeth cleaned and got some stuff picked up at Lowes a few things at Walmart and then home. I got my boards measured and cut for my new wood legs to my rabbit cages and then got all teh garbage cleaned out of the barn, cleaned out the truck and then my bathroom and bedroom. I even had picked up one of those Swiffer 360 dusters and it got all the cobwebs out of my bedroom, then I used it to pull all the dust off my Breyers as well. They all look really good.
Well my hair has been cut, albiet a bit shorter than I'd like, eyebrows done, and now my teeth back in shape. I really wanted to look my best to at least try out the dating world again. I haven't lost any weight and now I'm down to 3 months to lose 30 pounds to keep with the 30 by 30 challenge that Anita started. I can't wait to lose weight, I've fully decided that the doTerra weight loss wasn't working, I didn't take anywhere near enough to help by the bottle's recommendation but the acid reflux and heartburn wasn't worth it! I'm still working with the Tri-Ease for allergy. I still take Clariton and if the Clariton quits working I'll step back up to Zyrtec. I'd rather get off the OTC allergy stuff but the doTerra doesn't take care of it completely.
I think I might just cut some more rabbits back and still move forward with the plans for a dog instead. Someone has them listed on CL. They said they had red Merle's for $175. Now the question is are they AKC, ASDR and are any of the red Merle's female? I want it registered so I can show it as a younger puppy and go for Rally and agility. Pictures I've either saved or taken of Red Merle's. Oh how I LOVE that color.
I quite enjoyed these last two days. It's my last 5-day weekend. Then I go to the 7 days a week schedule. Even after talking to Sandy today for the time being this schedule *will* be better than the one I'm on currently. No 4 days straight, the longest stretch I have is 3 days and that's the weekends that I work. In the mean time it should be better. I'm not as happy still but at least I'm on the good crew to work. I have Ashley and Chris. Chris still has to finish training me on line 8. It's going to mean no more seeing James without one of us volunteering but I won't ever have to see Russel again either! That's always a bonus. Today really was a good day. I didn't get enough done that I wanted to but I over slept by a LOT. Haven't been sleeping as good for a few weeks now and I decided yesterday to take a trial. The nasal spray I've been given to use to help with my sinus' smells like Marigolds to me. So I had picked up a Marigold plant over Easter weekend. Then I thought about it at work- mostly while the nurse was being spastic over the burn on my hand- I thought that the nasal spray I usually end up with a sinus infection shortly after using it. So last night I took the Marigold out of my room. Mom said it shouldn't have made a difference. I don't know about that. I slept solid last night, like 9.5 hours solid. I hadn't expected it to work that way. I had figured I still wouldn't have slept well and went to bed early. I had to go pick up the sheep from Halsey's today. I woke up 9:15 and about freaked out. They're only open until noon and it's an hour each way plus I'd never been there before! So I took off. I was hungry by the time I got home so I had to open and try the bacon. Oh it was yummy!
Then I went over to Aunt Lisa and Uncle Jim's. I got to watch Molly deliver her last lamb, besides the one deformed baby that Lisa pulled. A beautiful set of white with spots, girls. I got to see all the others too, seems like too long ago that I last saw all them. Seeing the babies is so adorable! If it wasn't for the future plans to get into a place of my own, I'd buy a lamb for myself. I'm not as big a fan of lamb meat though, they're just CUTE. Well I'll have to make do with going over and visiting. Some day I'd love to have a mini farm and raise my own babies for sale/meat. Thinking, Aunt Lisa had stopped in her vet's office and saw a drop dead gorgeous Aussie. They said their nephew had bred it so there's some locally bred. Oh how I want a dog so badly. My new work schedule is MUCH better but right now I'm not ready. I still have a few more rabbits to sell but I need to dig down deeper and make some hard choices.
Thinking future. DJ, McCandles, Ashley and Chris are all trying to get me to go out on a date with Eli next weekend- Memorial day weekend. He's very seriously shy and I'm just over nervous about doing it. I haven't dated in YEARS. I don't know if I could do it. I'll be mentally working on it this week during the week.
Tomorrow I'll be up giving Heidi a good ride. She's been off for over 2 weeks. After a good ride on my big girl, I'm going to go collect Tru and work on her a little bit and I'll put her in the arena and see what we can and can't do. I won't push her just yet, but then I also want to give Spencer a little work on the lunge line. I had intended to do it today but I had forgot about the Preakness today. Go California Chrome! California Chrome has the first two legs of the Triple Crown now! Maybe he can end the drought and win the Belmont in 3 weeks.
My emotions have been on a great roller coaster ride. I think a lot of it's the sinus infection that I've been fighting, it's been draining me really good, I'm almost always tired. I will fight through it at least until Friday. If I can't get it gone by Friday I will go down to the clinic and take care of the problem with some antibiotics. I've been fighting with it for almost 10 days now. It started to go down to my chest. I had a sore throat for a few days but I beat that back now to just get it out of my head. It'll alleviate the chest pain and the almost constant sweat. Right now I take an Advil congestion every night before bed. Once I take that I can lay down and go to sleep within a half an hour. I hate being dependent on something like that to be able to sleep, but it's either that or sweat to death and not sleep. Right now I even stopped using the diffuser because I can't smell it anyway. At least for right now it's back in my head and out of my throat. I've been scared to stop and visit in case it is something, someone else can catch(ie I thought it was a cold). But I even went to the rabbit show, felt like shit but I did it, no one else got sick.
I overheard dad talking last night, I think it was to just mom that he was waiting to 'get rid' of his kids, he got rid of one by leaving him behind. I don't even know for sure if he was serious or not. I know it's been harder on him having both of us here but at least I pay my rent and I do, do things around here and help out. It shouldn't have made me angry and upset but it did. I've done everything asked of me help him with this or that I don't know what's going on. That or the stress of having Jess be a free-loader here is getting to him. We all know, including mother, it's only a matter of time before the Buick dies. It's getting worse and worse and I drove it the other day and I was scared to take it to Owingsville! So long as Jess knows and understands, when that car dies, she'll have to face getting a loan and buying a car, there's no other vehicle here available for her to drive. She sure as hell isn't driving my truck or dad's truck and I made it quite clear she's not driving grandma's car either. She'll have to get a loan, get her own car and insurance. I've taken care of mine for years, about damn time she takes care of her own.
Thinking of cars, Allen's truck is still sitting here. I think I might take it over to the barn on Sunday and have dad pick me up from Lisa's when he brings Grandma back. I'll have to ask Lisa and Jim make sure it's still alright to put it out by the road over there to sell it. Craigslist hasn't gotten me anything. I'll give the stats to DJ today and see if he knows anyone and maybe get it sold. I've got a guy through CL right now that wants it but wants to pay by PayPal sight unseen. It leaves me too uneasy. Who would buy a vehicle sight-unseen that wasn't trying to scam you. I know Paypal has the buyer protection on it, but what about the sellers? I don't think I'm going to reply back I just, I don't know. I'll see closer to Friday if DJ doesn't have anyone I'll stop over on Friday and talk to Aunt and Uncle and see if they're still okay with me bringing the truck over there. Need to get it sold. Everyone wants stuff for nothing, I've has some tire kickers but I don't even answer those.
Going back to work today for a 4-straight. Hopefully I'm not training, I really do hope I'm not. I don't think I could handle it right now. I still hate the company I work for, Sauce room has been better than the dough room so far. Maybe it's the cross training I'm finally getting after moving to the Sauce room. Maybe it's no more Russel or Justin with their super long breaks because they have to do this, that AND the other thing while on break taking 3 to 4 times the length of their break they're supposed to. Or maybe it's the better crew I am working with in the Sauce room. I do enjoy working with James, DJ and Ashley. Bishop and Jeff I can tolerate; the two temps, well they do push my buttons at times but they don't typically bother me. I hope we all even out soon. Still not a blasted thing on any resume's I put out. I'll keep trying as I have to, I HAVE to get away from Nestle. Put job hunting has turned very depressing.
I'm looking at Selling or trading to Perry, Bailey's blanket for some hay for her to hold her the last week and a half. I'm not sure he has a need for a 68" blanket, little less one that's hot pink but it would make me feel better. She's supposed to get picked up the 23rd. Not soon enough but, she's looking really good, she's almost completely shed out now.
Maybe it has come time to sell out all the rabbits and move on. I just need to start fighting my way through everything. See where it all falls and what it all comes to. It's a 5 day weekend coming up, I Have some barn demolition and reorganizing planned, riding Heidi, working with Tru and Spencer plus some good quality time spent with family(okay- Lisa, Jim and Grandma) and just have fun and relax. So long as I'm feeling better everything will go. The weekend will fly by, that I do know. I intend to send a few more resume's out and just overall make the fight to get the new job. I've got at least 3 vets offices I intend to apply at, I might look at some in Morehead though that's the wrong direction at this point. I may even go for some of the bigger offices too. I'm mentally working on cull lists still, sell some more of the rabbits get 'em gone. Got at least 1 to Butcher, if not two. Yep. Got to Think Positively.
